Tuesday, January 16, 2007,1:43 pm
SUCKISH DAY.
just finished tution .
haas . she managed to helpp me with my homework .
though i didnt manage to finish hers =x
she shocked us & brought a
big big BIG butterfly .
that she caught downstairs =\
then we put it into a container .
verryy nice de lehs :D
though i dont dare hold the container .
it keeps having agitated movements .
very scary .
err . to me anyways . aha .
my tution teacher's much braver =x
well . an admittedly suckish day today .
as predicted . haiis .
couldnt concentrate at all in class .
couldnt absorb anything .
still . decided to just keep quiet .
forced myself to keep my stupid eyes from watering .
i seriously crammed out .
was actually ohkay de . up till recess .
when laogong came and asked me whats wrong .
i broke down le .
i despise how freakishly easy i get vulnerable .
haiis .
dont know what to say ba .
there's NOTHING to say .
and i told myself i dont anymore .
but why am i still affected so ??
all things aside .
thats one thing i really dont get .
do i orr dont i ?
i need that assurance .
couldnt go to the republic open house with them .
couldnt go and watch theirr training .
had to sit through AMATHS .
i really wanted to go back today .
watch theirr last training .
since i dont think i can watch the matches )):
i dont want things to be this way ):
especially to smack that korr in the face .
CHAP BACK ?
why ? )):
God . why do things turn out this way ?
i really pray that your light will shine in their direction .
so that they might walk in the path of light .
ANYWAY .
write about the weekend le ba .
quite a hectic weekend .
thats why all the homework piling up now .
SATURDAY .
had to go to school early in the morning .
was kinda reluctant .
after what had happened the night before .
but i told myself .
youu WONT see him .
there's so much you have to do today .
so ..
intended to meet fiqah early in the morning .
to watch the muster parade .
she even gave me a morning call .
but . as soon as i put it down .
i plopped back to sleep )):
sighhs . so i was late .
and by the time i reached . it was JUST over )):
and your face was the first i saw as i entered the gates .
haiis ):
got a major scolding from narain .
this one . it was seriously my fault .
i thought he said "i want the printed thingy"
instead of "follow me to get the printed thingy"
eeeeesh . he threw the banner and container in front of us in anger .
haiis . then we had to set up the stuff .
andd wearr the jerseys .
ahahahaha .
at least we all look kuku together :D
well . shoban and narain were both quite pek cek with our behaviour .
but . cant blame .
we seriously didnt prepare ourselves .
waiting for another to step up .
at the endd of the day . he toldd us off for the second time this yearr .
after introducing ourr most probably new coach .
i can understand his intentions for us .
reaally . i agree with them .
but . the words he uses . really too much .
its really very harsh lorhs ):
haiis . then we went to king alberts park . haha . audrey made us take 985 !
oh wells .
walk more can burn more :D
weeeeeeeeee ~
was kinda confused whether i should go service with julia .
should have helped shoban they all .
should have made the banner .
but . i needed God badly. orr at least .
i thought so .
during service .
i was really distracted .
it was like .
i wasnt even there .
delirious? somemore !! lol .
i couldnt hearr the worship . but all i could do was look around me .
it was like i was surrounded by four glass walls .
then . i felt God telling me .
i havent been living a prayer-full week .
and that i had come for the wrong reasons.
being so distracted .
luckily .
during the second part of the worship . after the sermon .
thing seem to have gotten better .
and i was able to jump for christ .
it was during a particular song .
which title i cant remember =x
but . i really thank God :D
had dinnerr with jenna. julia . jeremy . marcus and ruian .
hahaha . it never gets quiet with them (:
spent the night at ahyi's house.
we watch MY GIRL .
wooots ~ i want the disc !! )):
lols . nice show . hehe :DD
turned in quite early
wanted to rush back home . cos forgot the games file !
but . ahyi didnt allow .
so .. no choice .
had to make up some .
auite a disasterous games day actually ^^''
hm . no time to write . haha .
sunday de . i write tomorrow ba . haah .
homeworkHOMEWORKhomwork !
not really up to details . no moood to write ^^
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